A day of many fortunes... My winning eleven psp challenge went quite well... God was on my side otherwise I would have been rolled over. So much fun... Tomorrow a new challenge awaits and may God bless.
A wedding is a time of great joy and happiness. Yet as I stood there, I felt I was just an observer. The joy seemed so real and yet I felt as if I would never have a part in such joy. It seemed like something I would never have the privilege... to stand there in love. Didn't want to appear like a spoilsport... but I think I didn't do too well...
As I read more of 'soul survivor' the more I feel the desire to love others. Not as a collective other but an individual other. To value lifes and seek to engineer change. I feel the call to do more, to love more and to be more like Jesus. But yet some part of me pulls back. WHY!? Oh my soul, why do you torment youself so? Seek to do His will and leave the old self behind!!!
At the wedding, I felt so isolated, so 'seperated'. People I thought would talk to me appeared distant and didn't even say hi. People I've shared my heart with, people I've looked up to and respected. Now they feel like strangers. My heart weeps and my soul cries out for a connection with them. And who would come? My jc classmate (and jermaine's cousin) initiated contact. A small glimmer of light in the darkness perhaps. Haiz...
