What do you do when you feel sad, when your day (or life) seems bad? Wave it off? Drown it with intoxication? Pour it out to friends? Sing a sad song? All these I want to do and more... Yet I don't... Day by day my sorrows collect in the bottle that is my life. Occasionally I forget this bottle is filled when a happy day comes round. But happiness seems more like an illusion than a reality...
I feel alone in this world... Am I not worthy to be loved?? And whats more am I not worthy to be entrusted to love? Is the only one who loves me, forgives me and believes in me, in heaven?? Would I not then long to leave this wretched place and be there instead? Yet this life is not mine to give or take and that frustrates me.
I want to be loved! To be significant! To be entrusted to love! Believe me when I say this.
So why does my phone remain silent? Why that no windows would pop out on my msn? Am I scary? Unfriendly?? Tell me! Can my past not be forgiven and forgotten? Can God's love not be seen in His family? Even if its just a faint reflection??
Jesus answer me. My friends answer me. Somebody somewhere answer me!!
Walked away from the field today. What more to say? Don't think anybody noticed as a slipped away silently... Who looks around for me anyways? HAHz...
