Have you ever wondered if your friends consider you as much a friend as you consider them to be yours?? This question kinda floats in and out of my head from time to time. Maybe I just perceive non-existant slights and insults. Maybe I try too hard to be something that I'm not. Hahaz, I don't really know. I guess there will always be those people you thought were friends but they think of you as kinda creepy or weird. (Too quiet)
So week in and week out, I try to find those that are real. The friends who stick closer than a brother( or sister) and who's love is thicker than blood.
Sometimes I thought if I cared a little more about people or send more encouragement to them. In other words be more pro-active in the friendship. Perhaps I thought I could build it. Then I realize that sometimes its just not possible. You'll never hold any part of their hearts or their mind. Their life is already too full to accommodate you.
So the mistake I guess is with me. Imagining that everybody can be a friend. So I'm just wondering if I've judged correctly and if I've gotten the right people. Maybe I've overestimated and there are actually only 1 or 2 or even none.
I don't believe so. I hope not. Now if I can only convince myself.
