I stepped off the rumbling platform into familiar surroundings. I indulge in the moment of deja vu as the door closed behind and the bus slipped away. Memories rush me as I ascend the steps. Sweet memories. Bitter memories. Distant memories.
My purpose was different today. Unstructured creative construction of structured noise with chan and co. Its been a long time since I was here because of 'her'. The route was as similar as I remembered it to be. Nothing much had changed, yet it was vastly different. A refreshing gust hit me in the face, my shirt flapping in the wind.
"All I need is You, All I need is You Lord, is You Lord..." The song on my player changes. How appropriate I thought. Clouds shifted lazily in the sky, trees dancing to the rhythm of the wind.
Then my mind shifts. I wonder what "she" is doing now. I wonder what could happen the next I meet "her". Hope springs eternal but is mine but a foolish self-deception? This questions haunts my days, yet hope still abounds in the fields of my imagination.
"Your" voice echoes through my mind. "Your" encouragement and support still strengthens me. I still remember looking at "your" smile. At times I longed to make right the wrongs "you"experience. To bring a smile to "your" face. And regardless of how it may have came, still my heart is at peace when I know you are well.
I will forget the old 'you' and look forward to the new "you". What may be. Could be. Hopefully. May the blessed God keep both of you safe and bring happiness to you(s).
As for me, I can only hope in this silent moment that one day dreams will be reality.
