I just adore Zoe Wanda Hammie and Darryl. Calvin and Hobbes. Comics that I've been reading a lot of lately. Of course Baby Blues now have Wren also but the ones I've found in the library are mostly older ones. I love the spin they put on family life, playing on stereotypes and putting fresh perspective on common ideas. I like the way that no matter what happens, whoever gets who angry, or the the strain of daily life, you can always count on them to stay together. To stick together as a family through thick and thin.
I guess that arises from having came from a divorced family. Though I wouldn't dare say I was too young to know anything. I sorta knew most of what was happening. But I feign ignorance cause I guess at 12 you can't really know how to react. Esp when I'm supposed to be the "Man of the House" when I had never saw a razor, had no clue about CPF and taxes and really did not have much cares besides completing my video games and trying to survive PSLE.
So I REALLY dream of a family. Or having one. I'm scared as hell about living up to be the best husband or father but I'm determined I'll do my best.
Then I realised I must learn life first. The little things. Working hard, being diligent, being nice to people, helping to carry people's weights while learning to share mine. Being faithful, loyal consistent, kind and loving. To invite wisdom to dwell in my life and let God be my guide.
Learning life well so that next time, I can teach my kids to live life well too.
Its not easy. I still trip up now and then. Failing to my baser instincts. Letting my desire for family and companionship carry me away. And then seeking an instant cure for it.
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Lord give me the patience. To live out my time in Yours. To not rush the preparation or to hesitate at the time of action. So my life will not be too raw or overcooked. That my life may be feast to all I know. Filling the life of others with joy and Your spirit. Pour forth thy grace and mercy.
