Today there has been a severe lack of company online... Nobody to talk to even if I wanted to... Yet lately that has been the case... except maybe for chan... Which has been great talking to him... Kinda sian though, do wish I could find someone to chat with... oh well, I got other stuff to do I guess
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I need to turn down the volume inside my head somewhat... I almost feel like asking God and wishing it away... to not feel a thing, to not think at all... just automate me... perhaps it'll be better like this... I need the function without the heart. Less human you say? Perhaps. Thats why I said I almost felt like it.
A fair opportunity? The odds have been tilted. God tell me how to proceed. This weekend I'll cover my bases. I need to know how to feel... I feel very non-rational. Does it make sense to you? Not sure if it does to me... I can't tell why...
But I know there's something I have to do... I should, at least...
"Stand and fight!"
be still my heart and know that God is Lord...
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A singular purpose... strive for the goal... running this race...
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I wonder if I've been exaggerating somewhat... don't take everything I say at face value okay...
