Today was disastrous.... I screwed up every possible things I could... Now only a miracle will see me pass my first sem...
Even buying stuff did not really cheer me up... Got some new audio gear... and I was excited to get them... now I feel ashamed to be wasting my mom's money... sianz...
Haiz~~
And I think the worse thing is I think that I'm not feeling as bad as I should be... I should feel worse, more guilt, more sorrow... but not really either... has my heart been that blunted?