Even sleep is hard to find... napping for half an hours is annoying... Your words keep waking me up...
what a liar~ weaver of pretence~ you actually had the gumption... unbelievable... In the end whatever happened years ago and this march, you're just causing it to happen again... Repeating the cycle and just hurting the other.
Love is determined by the actions not just the words. Words of love followed by actions of betrayal point to a love that is incomplete and lacking... Where was the kindness in your actions? You went one extreme to best suit your liking and as and when you feel pleased about it you just waltzed right back... Congrats... your schemes worked...
I just wonder what if things had worked out differently for you this june. If she had decided otherwise... what would you then now tell the first? while she waited for you, you were playing with fire elsewhere.
Warning after warning was given. Tell, let her know. Yet till this day, you hide. In the excuse of protecting her but really I think you're protecting youself, giving yourself an excuse. You live in your own world, not see-ing that your actions in little ways matched your words. You forget, there is a common point, everything is related. The common point was you. Whatever you did, you affected so many and yet you justify it with a wave of your hand.
Two words. Grow Up.
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even saying it... still a weight upon my shoulders...