Woohoo! I got out of the house today! Not just to buy foo or what... But an actual out of the house kinda thing... it was nice to eat dinner with the group while celebrating clara's birthday. Second birthday surprise! hah!
It seems like we're all getting old. And it was nice to finally hear someone say that she didn't want to reach the end and think that all her life was wanting to get A's. I mean, I understand everything about excellence in your studies and stuff. But seriously, there are things that are more important. Studies itself (In the sense of academics, grades, etc.) shouldn't be an end but a means to accomplish something else. But of course I take great joy in learning~! Understanding the world... Eunice is a really deep and real, just a pity I don't converse much with her beyond the casual convos.
It seems like I cannot get the schedules to fit! First to plan and second to rehearse. We're running a dateline and still nothing seems closer to completion. Where's my panic button?
And I'm trying too hard to understand! To infer, To read the subtext. I must learn to relax and trust. In fact, I trust her more than I trust myself if I was in her shoes. I would surely have made stupid choices.
Oh, I begin to understand how easy it is to go anorexic. Okay, okay. Calm down~ I'm not =X I'm just saying its sorta easy to not eat much. And it actually becomes harder to eat more than to eat less. I mean like living on a tenth of a packet of rice per day, and that's whats considered a good day. If you got motivation to get past the first few days... after that its super easy. No wonder its so hard to break out of. The expectations and the rountine-ness of behaviour.
Oh~ I'm so hungry I think I'm going to sleep it off... breakfast tomorrow I hope~
