Yoz, its finally officially in use! I welcome all who come here (and I hope its many).
Well, if you're hoping for a cheerful and sunny blog I'm sorry I might disappoint you. Lately life has been in the doldrums. I have been going through and is still going through the worst time in my life. seriously no kidding.
A main bulk of it having to do with a special person. My peeps will know who, and there is a good chance that the special person will read this. (Hello!) But if you don't then, oh well... Anyway, recently I lost one of the most impt person in my life. If you know what it means to rip your soul apart, then you know how I feel. Now I'm on a journey to find her, even though she was the one who left. This feels like the longest of nights but my hope is that the dawn will come and I'll find her again.
If you're gonna say that I can't let go... then go ahead. I fight for the right to love her again. A fool I may be, but who is not in the name of love? She might hate me, dislike me, etc.... but I hope she'll remember the good things about me together with the bad, and not just focus on my wrongs.
Yet I do not blame her for leaving. I blame myself most of all. For not trusting her enough, for wanting too much to spend forever with her. Now, she wants to taste the freedom of singlehood and meanwhile I prepare a place for her to fly to when she gets tired.
Peeps- if you read this and then go "oh no here he goes again". Please try and understand how hard it is for me. Baby- if you feel annoyed when you read this, I'm sorry if you cannot take my straightforward feelings. If I could shout it out from the top of the world, I would. I love thee more than my pride, my possessions and my time. Your forgiveness and acceptance I ask for, and I noe only by grace you'll give.
But life goes on, army, ministry, soccer, winning eleven. Hope I have a match soon. But everywhere I go, I rather share it with you.
okok... thanks for slogging through my first entry, promise I'll put other stuff in regarding my journey through life. Any of my peeps reading this, if you think it wise, please pass the url to my beloved. Thanks, I ask no more.
