I watched a couple of shows today (new specs too). Material girls (Hilary duff!) and an older film... Lake house (Keanu and sandra). They are good shows... lovely in their own ways:)
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I think I noe why I feel so numb... its a subconscious thing I guess... I think I'm just blocking out something... maybe its the tears, maybe its the hurt... I AM blocking something... but goodness knows what it may be...
I'm tired of trying to find help too... nobody really seems to want to know~ either that or they really got problems of their own and I shouldn't really be bothering them with my burdens... haiz... maybe one last shot~ I also don't know who...
I can't threaten, blackmail or force it... so I can search around for it... though it may just be scraps of it but beggers can't be choosers... and I guess I'll take whatever little I find around...