I can't decide what I need to do! I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. I have many reasons to be sad and the only reason why I should be happy is that.... I should be.
Loneliness amplifies again. Sunday aft seems to have some finality about it.
Maybe thats why I fight so hard for cell.
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I see what others can have and wonder why I cannot reach there. Is it me? is it a question of effort? or have skill? or of fate?
On the brink of giving up.
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Talking to you is a joy. One that I relish much. But the chance is now past.