my mom scolds me for wasting her money by not eating the dinner that she buys, and for spending so much time in the house... I wish she knew what I felt...
I've finished three years... I really dreaded reaching november... Things made more sense...
I wish that I had a chance to show you that you can get the sunshine without the rain, the blue skies without the storm clouds. That the love you think you can only get, can actually be found without the heartache... if only...
many sad songs I found today on my brother's itunes, just the way I liked it...
I wonder if you see the same skies as I am... probably not, I'm not even facing the right way... are you walking down that street I remember? Or sitting in that ferry? Maybe going up that hill top or that long row of escalators? Are you smiling or frowning? what are you thinking?
I lament the timing of everything... if only I stepped out earlier... if only I could have known you longer...
I can't believe its only tuesday evening... it has been an eternity...
My heart races and I don't know if its just labouring to carry on...
love is not just about feelings or an idea. Its about Truth and truth.
I pray Dear God, may you work things out... and speak your Word... That in the end, only You may be number one in her heart... Guide her through Lord, to help her find her happiness and love in You. Walk with her the streets of hongkong. Hold her if she cries. Rejoice with her if she laughs. Watch over her as she sleeps... Never leave her side Lord. Your precious daughter needs you and I pray that Lord you'll answer her calls and be her comfort, shelter, wisdom, strong tower, renewing strength, faith, love, hope and joy. Lord, I believe you understand her heart best, and Lord help her to see herself through your lens. That whatever lies the devil may veil her eyes with, that Lord your wisdom will prevail. Your will be done in her life. Shield her, oh Lord, You who are a father to the fatherless. place your hand of love upon her shoulder. And carry her, to let her know that Your love and grace is more than enough, always.
The 'angel' will return soon. But if its your desire, grant him the strength to love her. That through it, your 'angel' will channel your love and Your love alone. Help your 'angel' to trust in you as well.
Lord, watch over your beloved... and your "angel's" as well...
