Camp has ended. And I'm exhausted. For many reasons. Firstly having to do so much... Secondly, being in charge, thirdly, you.
I'm amazed by how much it occupies me. How much I enjoy being near you. And everything about you.
And I'm scared to close my eyes. Because if I fall asleep and wake up tomorrow, I might find that you're gone. Each moment is precious like a pearl, because they are rare and I might never find them again. I'm afraid to look up and find that you're gone.
Many words till the sun broke the night. Laughter and seriousness. I like making you laugh. At least for a moment, you weren't so guarded. It felt like the real you was there. And it felt like the real me was there too. 2 friends. Sharing, telling. If anything, for a moment my burdens lifted as I sought to know you. I so hope you wouldn't close on me. Sometimes people got to deal with the fact that people actually have friends and confidantes that they talk to, and they really shouldn't be insecure. Furthermore, because the other person already promised and she will and can do that.
Sometimes, I think, people can't do the things they say.
I've decided I'll wait. What's a few years. Love is patient right? I have to work on Love does not envy though...
And my radar is always active... My ears and eyes pick up any hints of your presence. I shall try not to look though... probably irks you some what...
the soft glow of the candle, embraces your face, the beauty of the flame reflecting in the sweetness of your eyes.
I wonder what you're thinking. You've told me some. And I cherish it so much. Honesty.
And I wonder if you're thinking it good, bad or insignificant. The convo, I mean. In the end, nothing much really changed. But at least now I know some part of your mind.
Don't avoid me. Don't ignore me. Don't push me away. Don't hate me. Please. I ask this. Are you ignoring me now? Don't think so... must be a reason...
I'm scared to show my smile, lest you forget me. I'm scared to show you my tears, lest your detest me...
Asking God to help me love more without expecting a return. Unconditional. Sacrificial. ------------------------
I know this post like quite depressing... Camp was great. The activities were fun and everything... but if you wanna know more then ask me. I did have fun, and I did learn stuff. I just don't post them here.
I tend to post stuff I want to or stuff that's bothering me badly. So that's why it may seem lopsided sometimes...
Love is in the giving.
Not for an outcome or response. Just because I want to love you. That simple.
